My regret

In my life, since I borned until now, I had so many things that I always felt regretted after I did without thinking. Every time never think that I was wrong but this time I just did a very terrible mistake that I couldn’t forgive myself.
I have one person that I really love. I never been patient to this person, we always fight and never understand each other. Two weeks ago he left me to the other city and after he left me I have been having a very bad time, and we did not contact or talk that much, that made me thought that he didn’t loves me anymore. A few days ago I sent some break up massage to him. At first I thought this is a good time to break up but after I sent that massage I realized that I couldn’t do that, then he called me and said to me that what was wrong with us and he got very upset, very angry and he told me “OK” if you want to. In fact, I really could not break up with him I just tried to pay attention to him. Every thing seems to be a little too late to realize that I was wrong. I don’t know what to do to make us back together. I wish I could think over and over again before I done or decided something like this time. I really don’t want to get sad like this after I had done something. I want to tell him that I really sorry about the pass, sorry about what I had done to him and tell him that I love him so much. I have been learning about myself a lot since you left me. Last thing I want to tell him is I can not live without you, I love you honey.